I'm an emotional, moody person. Especially when I'm stressed. Patience is definitely not my strong point (HA! that's an understatement), but when I'm stressed out... my fuse gets shorter and shorter. I feel kinda bad for the people who deal with me on a daily basis. I mean, I know that I'm a loyal, good friend. I know that when I'm not too wrapped up in my own problems, I'm a good listener, and when I can get past the junk of my life, I can actually be a lot of fun to be around.
I realize that I have a lot of good qualities, but with how life has been, and how I've handled it, I've been a mess. I've been moody to the max, being grumpy when I have no *real* reason to be, snapping at people who don't deserve it, and really just being a awful person.
This is the flesh, the human response to the stresses of life. I have another choice though. I can chose to hand it all over to God, and go along my merry way. I can chose to keep my eyes above the waves. It's hard to chose, and hard to hold onto, but it feels amazing when I do. I'm fighting for that choice. I'm fighting for happiness, and level emotion, and really just being a decent human being who is completely and wholly grounded in God. He is the rock on which I stand. With him, I will not fall. He keeps me afloat.
I am *so* thankful for that....