Coming clean

This is the post where I tell you about my fears.. 

1)The idea of being single terrifies me. 

Believe it or not.. 

there's a lot of comfort in being in a relationship. 

I mean.. 

what am I supposed to say now if some guy asks for my number?? (just a minor problem I know.. but still) 

Also.. I have to admit that I put alot of pressure on Micah, 

about helping me when I'm hurting or something.. 

I know I should be relying on God, 

and I will..

 but I gotta relearn all this stuff now. 

It's tough :/

2) I'm scared about getting my permit and license to drive. 

That's why I've been dragging my feet about it.

I know I'll be glad I went through with it, 

when it's all said and done.. 

but I can't help but be scared. 

*sigh* :/ 

3)I'm worried that when I graduate from highschool.. 

I'm gonna end up not doing anything with my life.. 

and I'll let down everyone around me. 

I've had some major stuff spoken over my life.. 

and let me tell ya.. 

it's scary to have so much pressure on my shoulders. 

What if I can't do it? 

What if I disappoint everyone? 

I've had these fears circling my mind for awhile now.. 

I'm beyond scared. 

I know that I have people who love me.. 

and that God will never forsake me.. 

no matter how majorly I screw up. 

But i'm coming to a point in my life.. 

I can either soar.. 

or I can crash to the ground. 

 The choice is mine.

Sorry for such a depressing post. 

clearly I've had a lot on my mind. 

Love always,

-Alana<3