What hurts the most..

Is knowing what we had. 

How much love we shared.. 

And now we hardly talk. 

I'm practically in tears right-now..

Thinking about how you were my best friend. 

And now.. 

I don't know. 

I still hold you close to my heart. 

But baby.. I've already changed.. 

and I think you have too.

There goes my chances in being yours. 

I can be ok with that. 

I will be. 

Just don't make me live without you in my life. 

God.. please.. please don't make me lose him as my friend. 

I don't know if I could handle that. 

But here I am. 

I can feel him slipping through my finger tips. 

A heart breaking feeling. 

It's not fair. 

One bit. 

But we're so different. 

Micah.. please... please don't shut me out because I want tattoos.

Don't call me a bad person because I have different ideas than you do. 

I know you're probably not reading this.. and that's OK. 

I just.. I love you. 

You will always be in my heart. 

No matter what. 

I realize that God has someone out there for you.. that's wayyy better than me. 

I just pray she realizes how lucky she is to get you. 

Because she will be one lucky girl. 

Love always,