The last several days I've been doubting myself and things I believe about my future, but something hit me just a little while ago: sometimes we can't know for sure about anything. Dare I say, often it's this way. Life is full of situations when we're required to have faith and to trust, ESPECIALLY as a Christian. My entire belief in God is based on faith. It takes faith to trust that the Bible is living and breathing and that it's 100% truth.
Is not a simple thing, but when I think about it, I can't say that things should be different. I mean, if I can't have faith in the Bible and in God, then how am I supposed to trust God with my life? How am I supposed to trust Him with what I hold closest to my heart, and how am I supposed to trust Him when he calls me to go somewhere or do something?
Something that Ocean sort of pointed out to me is that rightnow, it doesn't matter whether I'm right or wrong. Simply because it's not time.
My focus rightnow needs to be on finishing school; being the best daughter, sister, aunt, niece, friend, and Christian possible; growing as a person; and really discovering who I am... In myself and in Christ.
When the time comes, I'll know what to do. I'll have to trust that God spoke to me, but He will lead me if I ask Him.
Honestly, that's a relief. My life is His, it's not my job to figure everything out.