Wednesday, April 2, 2014

What to do...

"Hey guys! look at my tongue!!!"- Patience

Lele and her kittens

My loves, Acacia and Hannah

Y'all, I really don't have a very high opinion of myself. I've gotten to where, physically, I typically like what I see. But the problem is when I look at who I am as a person. When I see my strengths, weaknesses, and short comings is when I start to put myself down. Or what I like to call, pointing out the truth about myself. Technically it's probably not the healthiest thing to do... I mean, we're supposed to focus on the good things about us and work on fixing the bad things, right? 

  The fixing part can get really frustrating though. For about two years now I've been actively working to be the best I can be, through Christ. And even more intensely in the last year. It's hard. This year so far I've pretty diligently read my Bible most every day and prayed a lot and spent time with God. But I don't feel even close to being healed. Last night was like the third time in the last few weeks that I've gone from just not being very happy, to full out sobbing and really not knowing why. I *hate* it...... I feel at such a loss..... 

Where is shalom when I need it?.....


  1. Adorable pictures! As for the more serious aspect of this post, is it possible that you're just going through a bit of a slump right now emotionally (because you know us girls, we are always on an emotional roller coaster) or is it something more serious that you're dealing with? I've just been getting out of a phase of depression in my life (thanks to winter, some people in school, and a few other reasons) so if you need someone to talk to or just someone who can relate I'm here for you.

    1. I've been going through some pretty rough stuff, over the last ten months. Not to mention the typical stresses of life and just being a girl.


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