Friday, July 25, 2014

Make in Me , Oh Lord, a Clean Heart...

  Lately I've been rather.... on edge *pause as my friends fall over in uncontrollable laughter because of my under-statement*... *coughs* anyways.... 
  I've told you before that I have a short fuse. Well lately... I fell like I don't even have a fuse. I just explode. My heart feels so dirty. My language has gotten so vile (which is typical when I have no fuse), my attitude has been awful. I feel like I've become more selfish (yes everyone is selfish to an extent, but right now, I'm worse...). 
  I don't like who I've been lately. I don't like the type of friend, daughter, person I've been. I've been pretty awful (I almost put a different word...). I really don't wanna be this way. Something has to change. I honestly do desire for God to make in me a clean heart. I've been praying for it. I've been praying for direction. With God's help, I will beat this. Through Him, the light of Christ will shine through me. 

  Anyone else dealing with something like this? 



  1. My heart is totally with you, Alana.

  2. I don't mean for that to sound like I'm saying, "Oh, you poor thing," but I think you know what I mean <3 :)

    1. Bahaha no I understood :).

    2. I experienced this kind of thing a while ago and all I wanted to do was disappear, so that's what I did. I just shut off from the world outside and saw a movie, read a book. After a couple of days I just felt the need of talking with someone and this time I was much better in behaving nicely.


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