Lately I've been rather.... on edge *pause as my friends fall over in uncontrollable laughter because of my under-statement*... *coughs* anyways....
I've told you before that I have a short fuse. Well lately... I fell like I don't even have a fuse. I just explode. My heart feels so dirty. My language has gotten so vile (which is typical when I have no fuse), my attitude has been awful. I feel like I've become more selfish (yes everyone is selfish to an extent, but right now, I'm worse...).
I don't like who I've been lately. I don't like the type of friend, daughter, person I've been. I've been pretty awful (I almost put a different word...). I really don't wanna be this way. Something has to change. I honestly do desire for God to make in me a clean heart. I've been praying for it. I've been praying for direction. With God's help, I will beat this. Through Him, the light of Christ will shine through me.
Anyone else dealing with something like this?
Shalom,
My heart is totally with you, Alana.
ReplyDeleteI don't mean for that to sound like I'm saying, "Oh, you poor thing," but I think you know what I mean <3 :)
ReplyDeleteBahaha no I understood :).
DeleteI experienced this kind of thing a while ago and all I wanted to do was disappear, so that's what I did. I just shut off from the world outside and saw a movie, read a book. After a couple of days I just felt the need of talking with someone and this time I was much better in behaving nicely.
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