Lately I've been rather.... on edge *pause as my friends fall over in uncontrollable laughter because of my under-statement*... *coughs* anyways....
I've told you before that I have a short fuse. Well lately... I fell like I don't even have a fuse. I just explode. My heart feels so dirty. My language has gotten so vile (which is typical when I have no fuse), my attitude has been awful. I feel like I've become more selfish (yes everyone is selfish to an extent, but right now, I'm worse...).
I don't like who I've been lately. I don't like the type of friend, daughter, person I've been. I've been pretty awful (I almost put a different word...). I really don't wanna be this way. Something has to change. I honestly do desire for God to make in me a clean heart. I've been praying for it. I've been praying for direction. With God's help, I will beat this. Through Him, the light of Christ will shine through me.
Anyone else dealing with something like this?