Friday, August 22, 2014

Things are about to change

 I sit here on my bed. The bed I only get to sleep on for two more nights. I look around at my room... a room that.. though it will store some of my things, will never be mine in the same way again. I broke down an hour ago when mom was talking about me cleaning out like all of my stuff so that my room can be used for sewing and crafts. I can only imagine how the tears will flow on Sunday. 

  I've had a busy week... full of packing, family time, and time with friends. Y'all, on Wednesday, I spent the day with Becky (which is always nice) and we got some tattoos priced and I GOT MY NOSE PIERCED! It didn't hurt like I expected. No worse than when I got the cartilage on my ear pierced. I can't believe I finally got it done... 
 Yesterday I got to spend the afternoon with my dear friend Rachael. I've gotta say, God really blessed me when He brought her into my life. She spoke life into me, and helped me see how wrong I've been in certain areas. She woke me up, and I'm forever thankful for her friendship. 
  My heart hurts today. I made a decision yesterday that I know God wanted me to make, so I know it was the right thing, but I hate it. I'm having a really hard time swallowing it and it makes my heart feel... broken. I know I'll get over it, but rightnow it just feels so wrong. 

  I realized something yesterday. I want a fresh start. I'm using G42U as a means for wiping   the slate clean and starting over. I'm slowly letting go of all I've held onto. The good stuff and the bad, and if God wants it in my life, HE will make sure it's there. Right now, it's a painful process, but I'm excited, and I'm ready to start over. 

Have you started school or are you about to? How do you feel about it?

It's kinda hard to see, but on my left side my nose is pierced! 



  1. i remember what it was like to leave home for the first time. I wasn't sad about it really at all - I was mostly just super excited to be moving in with a bunch of my friends and living an hour and half from home. I could hear the freedom calling me for weeks! On the flip side though, after I had moved back home from school I was a little sad to be moving back out again and into my apartment. I try to just look at things as new adventures, which can be daunting, but I know I have a support system in place to back me up and that even though life constantly changes and things will never stay the same, the people in my life love me no matter what. Just remember that there aren't really any wrong answers (I mean, yes, there are some non-biblical answers and you know what i mean) but really most of life is a question of whether or not to turn left or right and it's up to you to pick where you want life to go.

    you are going to blossom through this, and I think, just like the summer play, that you will look back on being sad here and laugh a little bit because all this is is fear of the unknown. love you girl! you're going to rock this!

    1. Thank you so much, Nat! You're the best. Love you <3

    2. if you ever want to talk about anything you can always get ahold of me on FB. or we can swap digits and text :)

  2. It is so exciting to hear ya making the move! It is scary as heck at first, but there really is a whole new world to delve into-in a good way! It hasn't even been a week for me yet, but we are already catching ourselves calling our rooms "home." You are going to do so great. And your heart is already in the right place! :)


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