I sit here on my bed. The bed I only get to sleep on for two more nights. I look around at my room... a room that.. though it will store some of my things, will never be mine in the same way again. I broke down an hour ago when mom was talking about me cleaning out like all of my stuff so that my room can be used for sewing and crafts. I can only imagine how the tears will flow on Sunday.
I've had a busy week... full of packing, family time, and time with friends. Y'all, on Wednesday, I spent the day with Becky (which is always nice) and we got some tattoos priced and I GOT MY NOSE PIERCED! It didn't hurt like I expected. No worse than when I got the cartilage on my ear pierced. I can't believe I finally got it done...
Yesterday I got to spend the afternoon with my dear friend Rachael. I've gotta say, God really blessed me when He brought her into my life. She spoke life into me, and helped me see how wrong I've been in certain areas. She woke me up, and I'm forever thankful for her friendship.
My heart hurts today. I made a decision yesterday that I know God wanted me to make, so I know it was the right thing, but I hate it. I'm having a really hard time swallowing it and it makes my heart feel... broken. I know I'll get over it, but rightnow it just feels so wrong.
I realized something yesterday. I want a fresh start. I'm using G42U as a means for wiping the slate clean and starting over. I'm slowly letting go of all I've held onto. The good stuff and the bad, and if God wants it in my life, HE will make sure it's there. Right now, it's a painful process, but I'm excited, and I'm ready to start over.
Have you started school or are you about to? How do you feel about it?