When you go to another country to minister to people, your flaws become very obvious to (at the very least) yourself. I knew I could be self-centered (I mean I do have a blog about my life...)and selfish, but man am I ever.
It's easy to minister when you get to do it on your own time, but I'm *living* in a forgin country for the purpose of ministry.
Right now, it's my life, and sometimes, I just plain don't feel like it. I suck it up and do it anyway, but it's harder when the ministry is, being available for the CG kids. I live with them. It's much easier to think "nah, I'd rather not. I don't feel like it right now.". I think about my own wants, a lot.
Now, there's nothing wrong with taking care of myself. I do need time to myself at times, but what I'm talking about goes beyond that.
This is an area I'm really being stretched in, and it's definitly good, don't get me wrong, but man... No doubt I'm human.