Anyone wou knows me well, knows that I love to read, but I don't take enough time to do it, most of the time. I get caught up in life, and honestly just get lazy. It's a lot easier to waste time on the Internet or watch tv/ Netflix.
I made a promise to myself to read more this year, though, and that's just what I'm doing. I'm proud to say that it's only March and I've read 13 new books (not counting 8 books that I reread). Granted, some of those were short books, but still, that's a lot of books.
My most recent read was Love Does by Bob Goff. Essentially it's this guy telling stories about his and his friends lives, all revolving around things that love does.
He made love out to be this beautiful, exciting, tenacious, painful, outrageous, risky thing that takes action.
He talked about how love draws people in, instead of pushing people away.
Love wants to be with people, not fix them. Love uses circumstances to shape us, instead of shaping the circumstance.
Love breaks down walls.
Love doesn't want to be typical.
And it goes on and on.
I don't feel as if I love well. This is something I felt convicted of, a month or so ago when I was listening to a sermon. Since then, I've been striving to do better, be better, but this books showed me something huge.
Love isn't about getting it all right and being perfect. Love is about finding what lights a fire inside of you, and putting yourself out there. It's about finding your passion and not holding back. If that means picking up and going to the bush to set kids free from prison, then do it.
He talked about the importance of having a big idea (your place of passion), and not a plan. He said that ideas are things that are flexible and expand, but plans box you in.
I've always been one to say that I don't want to be typical, and I guess I'm off to a good start. I'm spending three months of my life out of the country, aren't I? But I know deep inside, because it itches and wiggles and burns, that there's something bigger for me. Something bigger than working at a home for street kids, as a house parents, even though I love it, and I love Children's Garden. I will always be tied to this place, but I know there's something different, deeper, more in-tune with who I am as a person.
My ideas are still cooking, and I'm not sure what my deep passion is, yet. All I know is I'm a lover, I'm called to love, and love does.