Can I just take a moment to vent? No? Tough, this is my blog.
Ok, so I'm a senior, right? I'm five days from my 18th birthday, and finishing up this chapter of my life... Preparing for the chapter to come.
My mom... She says she's not sure I'll graduate this year. I'm not sure if she's joking around when she says that ( and tells it to people), or if she has a legitimate belief that I may not graduate this year. The former is probably more likely, but it doesn't rule the latter out.
Y'all, I've never been the model student. Procrastination has been my close friend all throughout life. But my mom hasn't even given me a chance this year.
I had a week or so of school before I left for Florida. I wasn't perfect, but I wasn't bad either. And now I've been home two school days, and my mom is all over me. I get that I need to do my work and get back into it, but seriously? If I'm getting anything done, it's an accomplishment. I've been on freaking VACATION for the last two and a half weeks.
Y'all... I'm legitimately scared. My mom might not have the faith in me to believe that I can do this. Our moms are always supposed to believe in us. If my mom doesn't believe in me, then how the heck am I supposed to believe in myself. I have dreams.. Aspirations for the future. For next fall! I want to do something.... LEARN something in my last year of high school. I'm scared that my friends laziness and procrastination will win out though, and I'll end up amounting to nothing like I dreamed about.
Man, I'm a mess aren't I? And I didn't even share all my problems... Ugh.