Sometimes something happens and you have a feeling it's a good thing, but you're also scared that it really isn't. I'm scared of hoping and believing it's good, because what if it isn't? I'm not sure I can handle another disappointment. But I also know I need to trust God, because I *did* seek Him before I did anything and I know that ultimately all things work together for good.
It's just scary. Trusting God is scary. I like to be in control. I'm hard headed and stubborn (redundant... I know). Trusting God means giving up what I want and letting Him be in control. It's a good thing, and it's something that will really take a load off and make me stop stressing. Easier said than done though, ya know? Oh Lord help me.