God has blessed me with a peace about my future. Today, is an exception. Today all I can think is nothing is going to come from my life. I don't want to waste my life.
I've *always* wanted to be a wife and mom, but I have no way of knowing when that'll happen. I could be married a year from now, but I also could be single until I'm 40.
I know what my next step is. I know that going to the Philippins is going to happen in 6 months. But after that, I have no idea.
Should I go to college? There's a career choice that intruges me... But it takes six years of school... And that... Well I don't know if I want to do that. I don't know if I can handle that. I don't know if that's a good idea.
I don't know yall... I really don't know.