Life lately has been a struggle. An adjustment. I really miss community life. I miss being around people who really love Jesus, 24/7. Now days if I'm not at work, crossfit, or making dinner for my grandmother, you can probably find me in my room, and it's eating at me.
Worship today though... Was really refreshing. I got to sing back-up like I do about once a month. We had such a small crew that it was just guitars and voices, so it was super acoustic, but God showed up big time. The first song or two I was basically just going through the motions, but I asked God to pour out on us. I asked Him to show up and boy did He. I can't really explain what happened on that stage, but my heart was being ministered to.
Then there was the sermon.. Which seriously spoke to me. In Romans 8:35,37-39 Paul talks about nothing being able to seperate him from the love of God. My pastor talked about this passage in a new light though. He talked about it from the point of veiw that not only would God's loved never be stopped, but neither would Paul's.
A lot of people have their limits with God. "I'll love you until..."
Mine would be, if I lost everyone I love and never God to be a wife/mom, I'd question my devotion for God and his love for me. I don't want to be like that, though. I want to be able to say "even if I love everyone and never get my dream of being a wife/mom, I will still follow God."
I want to be in such a place that *bothing will stop me from loving God.