I'm not a black and white person... Except when it comes to relationships. I don't do well with the inbetween. Especially when I care deeply for the person... More, or in a different way than they do me.
I'm very all or nothing, and right now.... God is working on teaching me how to not be that way. He's teaching me to still love, even when I may not be loved back the way I want to be. I can't even describe how painful it is... But I also know that when I come through the other side... I will be stronger and more caring than before.
God help me.
Shalom
I think there will always be some pain that comes with not being loved in the way or amount that you desire. After all, 'hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a desire fulfilled is a tree of life'. One other thing to remember though is that you don't always really know how and to what extent people actually care for you. People will surprise you, if you give them a chance.
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