Tuesday, September 10, 2013
And it was in that moment... that everything changed.
Today's Blogtember topic is : Describe a distinct moment when your life took a turn.
My moment would have to be... June 8, 2012... sometime in the evening. It was the last time Micah came over. It was the last time I was kissed by someone who wasn't a small child. It was the night I became single again... after almost two years of being taken.
That night changed me in a way I never thought possible. I never once believed that it meant what it did. That it meant we would never be together again. I also never believed that I would be OK with that.
I find myself... 15 months later... a different person. I've changed for the better. Part of me will always love Micah Hodges. Despite how dysfunctional and messed up our relationship was, I really loved him. That doesn't just go away. Someday though, the man God has promised me... the one He made with me in mind, will come to me, and I'll understand what all this changing was really for. So that I could be the woman he needs. We'll both have our scars from past pains, but we'll have eachother.
You see... on that warm night in June last year... my life completely changed. I didn't know it yet, but God was preparing me for my husband. I used to look back on that night and my heart would just hurt... all the mistakes made, but now I look back and feel purpose. I am who I am because of the mistakes that lead to that night. I'm thankful for it all.