What kind of example am I??

  My heart has been in crazy places lately. Selfish places... and painful places.

 The selfish place resulted in someone getting hurt by something I took part in... and then I was the one to tell said person about it. I never wanted them to get hurt. I never meant for that to happen. It was the last thing I ever wanted happening, but it happened anyways. I have to live with that. I'm sorry for the part I played. I know that "sorry" doesn't make it better. It doesn't make the pain go away, but it does mean that I'm not a completely heartless, despicable human being. I'm sorry doesn't change how I feel about the situation, but it does mean I hate how it effects said person. I pray that God eases their pain, and that they find complete comfort in His will.

  The painful place? Is my dad. Papa. The man whose always been a constant fixture in my life. The man who is the head of the house, but he doesn't pray with us, read the Bible with us, God to church with us, or even share our faith. THAT... breaks my heart. He's not an absent father, but he's also not the Christian counsel I need. His soul isn't saved, and I'm no help there. I'm not exactly a model Christian. I really do try, but I'm constantly failing, and Papa sees me fail every day. How am I supposed to be a light, to my own father when a perfect stranger could see what a screw up I am???


Shalom, 

God uses the lost too

Jonas enjoying the water trough

Today, my dears, is Father's Day. I was a little hesitant about church today. It's typically very hard for me to be at church on Father's Day , since Papa isn't there, but God did something really awesome today.

  Pastor Michael spoke on what everyone needs in a father. He asked a bunch of people, and the five most common answers were:
(In no specific order)
~ A father who cares. In other words, if something is going on, he's gonna want to know all about it and help all he can.
~A father who is there. This doesn't mean just physically being around, but a father who doesn't check out. One who is actively a part of his kids lives.
~A father who is ready to give advice. Kids need their dad's counsel. It's built into us.
~A father who is our biggest fan. We all need to hear our dads tell us that their proud of us, that we've done well.
~ A father who is a forever protector. There's something special about dad (or in my case papa) coming to the rescue. We need that.

The blessing was not this wonderful sermon, it was the fact that though Papa isn't a christian, I can easily say that he is all of the things I just said. God blessed me with a WONDERFUL Papa. I am so thankful for him!

Does your dad live up to such great expectations?

Shalom,