In a fog.

I'm skipping today's Blogtember topic because I don't write fiction.

Last night... I had a terrible terrible dream. The kind that crushes you and bleeds into your day after you wake up. I know it was just a dream.... but it felt so real. It feels so real....

I'm such a mix of emotions lately. Life isn't too terrible in parts.
 I've got my parents.
My senior year is going fine.
I get to go on vacation with my second family starting Sunday.
I have amazing, supportive friends.
God has promised me so much.

but then there's the stuff that isn't so great.
Dreams that literally shake me.
Having family far away.
Having unsaved family members.
Waiting for God's promises..


My life right-now is such a roller-coaster. Some days I great. I'm going strong and trusting. and other days I'm an absolute train wreck. Oh Lord help me.



Shalom, 

The three months that rocked my world.

 Today was the last day of Willy Wonka. People keep asking me if I'm glad, or if this is bittersweet... I can't say either is an accurate representation of how I feel right now. I'm actually a little bit heart broken. I never knew it would feel like this. I expected to be sad about it being over and saying bye to everyone, but I didn't expect it to be this bad.

  I didn't want to say my goodbyes to anyone, but there were several people that I feel the urge to cry. Those people would be Maribeth ( Violet's mother), Seth (Grandpa Joe), Wesley (The Candy Man), Mandi (Mrs. Bucket), and of course Ocean (an Oompa Loompa). I might elaborate on these people at a later date, but for now just know that they were a huge part of making this an amazing summer. I will miss everyone, but these people really touched my life.

  I think I've caught the acting bug. I have a desire to be in more plays now. Whether it's a musical or not. Just the whole experience... and the people... I'm addicted now.

  So I'm here nursing my hurting heart, praying that these people don't forget about me, because I know I won't be forgetting about them. Thank you for all y'alls prayers. I'm so thankful that I listened to God's prompting about being part of this play.

Here are a few pictures from the show:

Charlie and Grandpa Joe

Bucket Family

Candy Man and Candy Kids

Wonka and the Oompa Loompas

Cast. It's terrible of some of us, but oh well.. haha

Shalom, 

The feeling...

  

   God is moving. Doing big things in people's lives. I can feel Him moving over my heart, mind, and life. 

  Do you know that feeling when you know what would probably be for the best, but you don't like it? 

That's what I'm dealing with right-now. So I'm trusting God with this, because I know regardless of what I feel or want, He's in control and His will I'd always best. 

  This situation has a lot to do with me being patient and letting God be in charge, instead of me stepping out and taking control. 

  Pray for me? 

Shalom

Beauty from ashes, joy from pain.

"You never know what the future might hold.." It echos oh how it echos.

Peace is an overwhelming feeling. Overwhelming and amazing. I quite like it. Despite how my heart hurts at the moment, I have peace. I know that God's will has been and will always be carried out as long as I listen.

I may not always like the outcome. Especially at first. I don't like what I've seen of this one so far, but He knows best.

Whose to say that I won't get what my heart desires someday down the road. Maybe it just isn't the right time?

OR, maybe theres something much more beautiful than what I desire.

I suppose only time will tell.

Remember this, Y'all, God loves you. He wants whats best. Submit to His will and He'll make things as painless as possible for you.


Shalom,