Something I'm trying...

  I guess this is typical for a teenage girl especially, but I feel as if I live more in my head, than in the real world. Whether I'm day dreaming... Or winning an argument with someone I'm upset with. 

  Sure, it helps in the moment, but it tends to make me miserable later on. So I'm trying something new.... Whenever I start one of those... "Episodes", instead of living in my head about it, I'll pray for said person. Not a selfish prayer where I get my way and all ends happily ever after, but a prayer that's truly for their benefit. 

  It's easier said than done, but I'm doing my best. Just in the few hours I've been trying it today, I've been praying... A LOT. I've noticed it's hardest when I'm upset with someone. Typically I'd start bad mouthing them in my head and tearing them to pieces.... So this praying thing is new for me. 

  I really feel like if I can do this (with God's help of course), then it would be a huge help to me. 

  Pray that I'm successful? I know that in everything I do, I can't do it without God. That's the hard part, giving it to God to walk me through this. 

Shalom

I've been dreaming.

  Can I just say that Shay hit the nail right on the head with this post? Read it.

I've got a guy in mind.
I have to catch my breath when I hear his name, and I'm just so stuck on him.
He's far from being "mine", but everything in me (except a nasty little voice) tells me that someday, he will be... forever.

I'm just so ready. I don't wanna be alone anymore. The comfort of having someone there... forever... is what I long for. Someone who will hold me when I'm upset, and celebrate with me when I'm happy. I spend hours daydreaming about the home I'll someday have... I don't want to have to day dream alone... I wanna make plans with him....


patience.....


Shalom, 

I don't appreciate what I have like I should.

No make-up and you know what? I don't care :)

"Push me Wanna!!"

Fun in the pool with Kezley and Becky :)

  This weeks Whatever Wednesday topic is : Someone or something you take for granted.

 I've put a lot of thought into this... and I think I'm pretty good about not taking the people in my life for granted, but I do take my life in general for granted.

 God has blessed me with the beautiful ranch, the ability to grow up worshiping my God when and where I want, being home schooled, the list goes on.

  I'm one of those people that largely lives in the future. I'm constantly planning/ thinking about what's to come. It's rare that I just live in the moment and take it all in.

  I realize that this isn't good... because one day I'll look back and kick myself for not being thankful for the moment I was in.

  The truth is, I have a great life. Is it a super easy one with no problems? Absolutely not, but it's a blessed life. I don't have the boyfriend I want nor am I graduated yet. I don't have my license and I don't see my friends as much as I'd like to. Papa isn't a Christian... but he is an active part of my life. My sisters don't all live close by, but they come to visit, and I can call or text them anytime I want.

  My point is... everything won't always be rosey.... but this life I live? The life that God has given me to live? It's a really great one. I'm gonna work hard to not take it for granted as much.



Shalom, 

 

What a time suck....

  Today on Whatever Wednesday's, we're talking about things that we do WAY too much. I have a list.... because well.... I do several things too much.

1) Pinterest. I love it... it makes me laugh and be happy... but good grief I spend too much time drooling over tattoos and food.... and laughing at funnies... and longing for a wedding....

2) Day dream/ think. I spend countless hours either in a dream land (it really isn't healthy...) or over thinking to the point that I'm sick to my stomach and just wanna die.

and
3) Check my phone. I really need to make a rule that I can't check it unless I felt/ heard it, or I want to know what time it is. The phone checking only gets worse when I'm having a risky conversation with someone OR I'm willing someone to talk to me.

So yeah... that's me. What do YOU do way to much of?
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Shalom,