Showing posts with label Mistakes. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mistakes. Show all posts

Saturday, May 25, 2013

The fight.


Topic for day 25: Something someone told you about yourself that you'll never forget. 

  People have said a lot of things to me over the years, unfortunately, the mean words are the ones that stick. So I wade through... looking for what I want to share...

Once you've crossed that line in a relationship, you will ALWAYS cross that line. Slut. 

  We all know I was too physical in my last relationship... I won't say that statement doesn't scare me, but I refuse to claim it as truth.

  This is the truth: I will have to work hard to keep this next relationship pure. It will never be easy... not until my wedding night and I don't have to try anymore, but that doesn't mean I can't do it. That doesn't mean I haven't changed. That doesn't mean that God isn't bigger than my mistakes. I rest in Him.


Shalom, 
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Saturday, May 18, 2013

The event that gave me my one thing I wish I could change.


The topic for today is :Tell a story from your childhood. Dig deep and try to remember how you felt. 

When I was reminded what today is... I knew exactly what memory to talk about.

Rewind to 7 years ago today. A ten year old, oblivious me, was just doing her school in the living room. If I remember correctly, I was home alone with Becky and Ethan. My parents were out of town. Becky walks into the room and hands me a phone, telling me that Shelli has something to tell me. I don't remember how she worded it, but this is what she told me: Michael Burrhus (a man from my church) had died in a motorcycle accident on the way to work.
I don't think reality hit me until we were at his funeral a few days later, and I saw his wife Anita (Nene is what I've always called her) sobbing uncontrollably at the alter. This man, who was basically like an uncle to me (Nene is still like an aunt) was gone. I'd taken for granted knowing him most of my life. I was annoyed by all his teasing, but now? I would do anything to have that time back.
Mike was the kind of man that you couldn't help but love. He blessed every life he touched, and brought a smile to every face. He cherished his family,  and made those that weren't his blood feel like family.
I remember the months after his death... seeing Nene crying during worship at church, and just going to her and us hugging eachother and crying together. I, we all still miss him so much. Just writing about him is breaking my heart all over again. He's the reason I can't stand motorcycles, and he is the one thing that I wish I could change. No, I wouldn't bring him back, but I would cherish the time I got to spend with him more. I would ask him more questions about life, and just be with him. Oh how I would do things differently..

Love and miss you Mike. 
Shalom, 
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Tuesday, May 7, 2013

History Maker


Today's topic is :The thing(s) you're most afraid of

This was a really tough one for me. It was important for me to truly represent my deepest fear, so I couldn't take this lightly.

My biggest fear, to put it simply, is that I'll repeat history. It really does scare me that I might have to relearn a lesson, and live with the consequences and the scars of the repeat.

I've made my share of mistakes in this life, and bare the battle wounds of them. The last thing I want is to have to live that again. To slip into old habits. To hurt other people in the process. No thank you.

I want to be a history maker, not a history repeater.


What are you most afraid of?

Shalom, 

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